well, yet another loss in the finals
sometimes, it just feels you can never win as a captain
my last chance of getting a gold is up

disappointed those who hoped in me
let down my coaches
as much as they said we did a good job,
i still could feel a sense of defeat.
a loss that i could not comprehend.

we poured out every sweat and blood on the pitch
literally.
i half-dislocated my jaw,
ravi had a pulled muscle on his thigh,
samuel had 6stitches on his ear and his whole leg was bleeding.
but despite that, we still played on while gritting our teeth
putting our teammates before ourselves
that is worthy of respect
and i'm truly proud and humbled to call every one of you my team
pain is temporary, but inner victory is forever.

i dont regret a single moment
i love this team.
i love everyone of my teammates.
and thank you all for giving me a opportunity that i'll never regret.
every one of you have made a difference to me in one way or another.
be it mr singh's stories,
mr najib's words of wisdom,
bo yuan's gayness,
this is a team i'll never forget.
the tears we had shed after the match are valuable to me,
the pain we felt was shared so deeply,
yet there was a sense of unity,
a sense of trust
which i could never buy elsewhere and would never trade off.

especially seeing mr najib's powerpoint,
it brought back good memories,
strong emotions.
joy, strength, healing
fear, pain, sorrow
what a team.
different characters, one team.

i'm not here to justify myself,
RJC were a strong team and they took their chances
(good goal russell!)
and yeah it was painful,
but this would never change the fact of anything
the journey i took with my team is (not was) priceless and joyful.

i'm very proud to say that i think we fulfilled our vision: a hockey family
and rui huai truly reminded us of our motto:

"Champions in Victory and Defeat"

that's who we are.
we win, we lose.
and maybe that's what makes up a team in the end of the day

Maybe it's only through defeat that you truly understand the need to lean upon God
to seek greater refuge under His wings
His plan is greater i know.
if He wants to mould me into a better character,
let Him mould me.
the Lord gives and the Lord takes away,
but blessed be the name of the Lord.
maybe i held hockey too tightly,
maybe it became my all.
maybe a win wouldnt have brought me to my knees in surrender
but whatever it is,
at least this season will be something i'll always remember,
and in all this i give glory to God.

on a lighter note,
i'm deeply grateful for my class 11S53 who came down to support me and shout my name
and my parents and ushering ministry,
those who supported me in one way or another,
Melody, Roland and Huiyi
and yes you too Jia Lok.
thank bro. it means alot to me
hope everyone had a god time watching our match.
final score: 2-1 RJC vs VJC
hmm well, maybe silver isnt that bad
hahah.

and not forgetting,
thank you Mr Najib, for your great dedication to this team in so many areas
you have truly moulded me to become a better person
and thank you Mr Singh, your words are wisdom are so valuable
and i'll never forget the experiences you share with me.
and lastly, Mr Seet for helping us out in so many areas,
YES AND ERNEST. really very appreciative of your words and support throughout the competition!
like getting the jersey and pitch booking and supporting us all the way
thank you all. really, from the bottom of my heart.

it's my honour to play alongside my team
i have been truly blessed with so much experiences
and i just want to say i love you all.
thank you for making my time as captain such a beautiful one.
we still have the A levels to conquer.
it's time to mug together and show the school that we dont just play hard, but work hard too
let's do this!